yesterday

Jet Lyrics
Hold On Lyrics

was terrible. i can't go into details but to top things off at the end of the night my dog got loose again. i threw on my tennis shoes at around 11 last night & went for a run. a big run. a fast run. finally i found her in someone else's yard miles from home to which i sat in their yard trying to catch her for about 30 min. this whole fiasco probably lasted an hour or more, but it felt like longer. so i had an eventful night. and i've got the scars to prove it this morning too.

i can't believe i didn't get arrested. i sat on someones lawn until about 12 o'clock last night crying my eyes out watching my own life fall apart. the dog was just the cherry on top of the ice cream yesterday. i keep asking God what i should do, but i haven't really heard much from Him lately. and i don't mean that in a sarcastic or angry way. i'm just saying i really haven't heard His voice lately so i'm completely lost.

i have no idea what i'm doing. i don't know if i can make it through the summer like this. i keep telling myself that i can & sometimes i'm so strong that it hurts. i have made it almost half way through my classes & i'd hate for it to end right now. but i'm doing poorly in pretty much every single one due to lack of time. not due to my own apathy. i can't really go into anything personal so i guess it would be difficult for you to understand.

but...anyways. sorry for the sad little post.

maybe i should just hold on a little while longer.
i feel like this song.




"Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education alone will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan "press on" has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race."
-John Calvin Coolidge