Wednesday, October 31, 2007

i like this




A Franciscan Benediction :



May God bless you with discomfort

At easy answers, half-truths, and superficial relationships

So that you may live deep within your heart


May God bless you with anger

At injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people,

So that you may work for justice, freedom and peace.


May God bless you with tears

To shed for those who suffer pain, rejection, hunger and war,

So that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and

To turn their pain into joy.


And may God bless you with enough foolishness

To believe that you can make a difference in the world,

So that you can do what others claim cannot be done

To bring justice and kindness to all our children and the poor.



Amen

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Saturday, October 27, 2007

marilyn monroe

said this:

"a wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesnt believe, and leaves before she is left."



i would have said....

a wise girl doesn't kiss instead loves, listens AND believes, and stays behind to finish the job even when she is left alone.



hmmm...what do you think?

what is a life without love and faith anyways? none at all.
and if you're always escaping how can you truly love?


just what i was thinking.


sounds like she had a problem trusting people.

understandable.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

break my heart for what breaks Yours...




Give me the love that leads the way,
The faith that nothing can dismay,
The hope no disappointments tire,
The passion that will burn like fire,
Let me not sink to be a clod,
Make me Thy fuel, Flame of God.
--Amy Carmichael

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Our Heart...His Glory


♥ In this world so cold
But You're love keeps me warm
My Father holds me in His nail scarred hands
In which I put there
But for some reason
He still loves me with all of His heart ♥ -underoath



Tuesday, October 23, 2007

paper

“Whatever I can imagine, I can accomplish. I am no longer a vassal in a faceless bureaucracy. I am an activist, not a drone…I am a revolutionary.” -Gary Hamel's book Leading the Revolution


*here is the last paper i wrote in my missionary life & work class...with a few minor changes & reordering to help the reading go easier for you who probably hasn't read this book called The Shaping of Things to Come...


what do you think??? :) ok ok. at least read the last paragraph. sheesh.*




In order to reach people, we have to live where they live and hang out in the places where they hang out. For so long the Western church as made church an “attraction.” Instead of trying so hard to draw people into our church, we need to go out from the church and show others God’s love. We have made the effort to make everything in church look so appealing to outsiders, but we have taken the wrong approach. We have tried to make our churches look like the world so that the world will accept us, because typically people think that church is boring, and even most believers feel that they are only going to church out of obligation. If we shift our focus to the example that Jesus left for us, we will realize that the church is in desperate need of a revolution.

Building relationships with people and serving others is crucial, and it is the beginning of our Christian mission. Learning to relate to people and caring about what they are interested in will make them pay special attention to us. We can serve others in every capacity, even if it is just walking their dog, watching their children or listening about their difficult day at work. People appreciate someone taking an interest in their lives. Jesus took an interest in the loneliest people and hurting people of His time, especially among the sinners and the sick, who no one else would be around.

We are capable of accomplishing anything for the Kingdom. If we can imagine that the world truly can change and we believe we can accomplish anything, we become a revolutionist instead of a faceless believer that does nothing for the Kingdom. Too often we sit in church on Sunday and go back to our ordinary lives only to return to church again the next Sunday, making no effort to go out from our comfortable lives and make disciples like we have been commanded to do. We take no risks and make no journey. We must realize that we are responsible for this revolution. We must go and gather up people for the harvest.

Jesus is our model for Christian mission. He cares about every little detail of our lives, even in the moments of pain and confusion. Jesus hung out with all kinds of people from all different walks of life. He put no limitations on people as to how worthy or unworthy they were. He simply loved. He took them along with their pain and suffering and loved them. Jesus hung out with people, who according to society and even the modern day church, would be unacceptable to be around. Sometimes I wonder if Jesus walked into our churches today, if we would even recognize Him as Jesus, and if we would condemn Him for hanging out with “the wrong crowd”. As we learn to love unconditionally as Jesus did, people will begin to come into the Kingdom, because they will see the love of the Father inside of us. Our abandonment to Jesus Christ and our service to others is what will make the greatest difference.

Mission is what defines us as Christians. Mission is our purpose and our calling in life. We are called to live a life of love and service as our Father did. It is time for us to take the dream that God has given us and run with it and proclaim His name to the nations. When we get our minds off of the familiar and comfortable, we will begin to see a change. When we take courageous risks and commit our lives fully to the cause of Christ will there come about a revolution like this world has never seen.

We must revolutionize our thinking and our actions if we want to make a difference in our world. We must go where no one else is willing to go and stretch ourselves farther than we ever have before. We must learn to think “outside of the box”. This is a phrase that we hear often, but rarely grasp the importance. Christians have been putting God in a box for far too long. It is time for this generation to rise up and let God have supreme control and authority over our lives. We must learn to love like Jesus does and let our creativity and imagination spark new and fresh ideas for bringing people into the Kingdom. We must forget the lowly thinking we have of God’s power and let His Spirit whisper in our ears the direction in which He would have us go. It is time for us to pick up our cross and truly follow after Him. In order to bring people into His Kingdom, we must be willing to sacrifice all that we have and all that we are, chasing after one goal: the Father’s heart. We must align our heart with the Fathers. After all, if we can’t hear His heartbeat, how can we change the heart of people and the heart of nations?





“We must not be afraid to be unpopular, to be seen as revolutionaries…The real revolutionary perhaps the only one, is the person who has nothing left to lose." -Frost & Hirsch's book The Shaping of Things to Come

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

sun




yesterday, the sunset was beautiful. it always is here. i love looking at it especially while running around the lake. God told me He rose the sun for me yesterday. He rises & sets the sun every day for me...but you know...we just had a special little sunset thing together yesterday.

i'm His little sunshine. :) He thinks i'm so cute. haha. i love Him.

so this was my song yesterday...



Did You rise the sun for me
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty
Is Your voice upon the wind
Is everything I've known marked
With my maker's fingerprints
Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever I will seek You
'Cause all You are, is all I want, always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You
Can I feel You in the rain
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify one name -hillsongunited

Saturday, October 13, 2007

listen



i'm learning to be still.

who would have ever thought that would be difficult?

i'm learning to just be me & listen.

shhh......listen.

can you hear the Father's heartbeat?

can you hear the heartbeat of the nations?

can you hear my heartbeat?

sometimes you just gotta listen & be.

there's definitely a time to be loud, crazy & obnoxious like i tend to be a lot of the time.

but i'm just sitting, watching & waiting for now.

as hard as it is, i'm learning much.


Thursday, October 11, 2007

to fight or not to fight?



where do you draw the line between fighting for something that you want & letting God be in control of it. i mean it probably wouldn't make sense unless i explained the situation & i'm not going to, but....

i don't want to sit back & let it pass me by if it's something worth fighting for, but at the same time if it's out of my hands, i don't want to push anything outside of the will of God. But again I don't want to sit by & lose it. I know God knows. If it's meant to be.....

let the chips fall where they may. it just seems like there's always something in my way.

it's just about to break.
i'm sure i need to shift my focus as usual. this goes for more than one area of my life. i'm too much of a lover & a fighter to not to think about it. i need more confidence. but i'm not setting myself up for disappointed again. man. i HATE doing what everyone else is doing. i have like CONFORM-A-PHOBIA.


if i wasn't so afraid of falling i'd jump.


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Monday, October 8, 2007

blessed be Your name

this something i wrote a while back obviously. you'll see as you read :)



I guess today I'm thinking as usual & I guess that's usually what happens when you get any tragic news. That news that no one ever wants to hear. I've been wanting to write for so long, but the busyness often makes it difficult. After all that has happened this year, I'm kind of at a loss for words. So many great things have come out of this year & at the same time this year has been a huge struggle for everyone. The miracle in Tim Poole's life was…completely & utterly from the hand of God. I am amazed to say the least. God is so great! He is so great that & I am so not worthy of His love, but I am entirely lost without it. The whole Virginia Tech deal was the huge news for this year. Shocking…..& painful. And the death of a dear brother Josh Stacy yesterday was……..well, there's absolutely no words for it. It's weird that I just saw him leading worship last week & this week he's gone. It's unbelievably painful to say the least. I can't even begin to express the sadness of his family, his friends & my university today, but at the same time the unbelievable JOY that we feel for him. I always get this way when someone who is so young & so close is taken away. The last time I remember feeling like this was when Stan White died a little over a year ago. I think back on the ones that we've "lost"…..for lack of a better word. I guess I shouldn't say lost because in all reality, they've been found. They have been found by the Creator of the Universe! We take it sooo lightly when we say things like that, but if we only knew what we were saying! I really am so excited. Of course it's a little easier for me to say when it's not my own family member, but….at the same time….my heart is jealous that they made it HOME sooner than me! My flesh wants to say "God, why is it that only the good die young? Why is it that the ones who love You & the ones who have so much passion & life inside of them are always the ones that are taken first?" Of course I have no answer to questions like these because I'm not God. All I know is that He IS God. I think that the one resounding lesson for this year is……



The Lord gives & He takes away. But my heart will CHOOSE to say:

BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD.



I keep hearing it resound in my spirit over & over again. I just pray that we will never take one single breath for granted. That every day when we wake up we thank God in heaven for breathing His life into us. I wish as young adults, we would stop acting like we are invincible. We don't realize that value of our life & how quickly it can be over. I'm not ending this on a bad note by any means. I'm simply saying that we are here for one purpose & one purpose only. To worship the King of Kings & to tell the world that He lives! I am so so so excited. Why are we always so afraid of the unknown? For once I just want to jump off of the edge & let the Father's arms catch me. To plunge into the deep & not be afraid. We, as children of the Almighty God, have a hope that no one else has. We know that there is more to this life than being alive. (oh my…am I'm quoting Anberlin) But we really do. And we know that this life is only temporary, but our life with Jesus is everlasting. If we could see Josh right now…I wonder what He'd tell us. The point is…that this is not Josh's end. It's his beginning of forever! He caught only a glimpse of this life. And now he is forever resting in Daddy's arms. He will be missed by many, but the legacy of his life….will resonate in our hearts forever. & to everyone else i would say.....



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When you pray, pray with power
When you worship, worship with passion
When you love, love deeply
When you dream, dream big




* To all the ones who have made it Home before us……tell Dad to come soon!!!*



<3 me

Sunday, October 7, 2007

coffee




i am so tired. i mean really tired.

i wish i had starbucks right now.



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as a side note: boys are weird.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

giving it up




i'm putting my life in God's hands.

not that it wasn't before. but i'm not planning ahead anymore, because it NEVER works out like i planned it to. it cracks me up how i can have everything planned out in my head. i end up like a deer in headlights every time. not a pretty picture. that's what i get for trying to do things on my own.

i seriously give up. haha. givin it all up for God.
it's about time steph. thank you.



God orchestrate my life
Equip my feet to run
Captivate my heart to love
Give me wings to fly
Rend my spirit to adore
May Your praise be continually on my lips
Forever.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

pictures






i have an unbelievable festish for certain things. and if you haven't noticed yet, pictures is one of them. specifically pictures of people. i love people. i save millions upon millions of pictures. surprisingly the dell hasn't blown up yet. i'm trying my hardest not to make it a habit to only leave pictures & not write, but i've been incredibly busy lately so i fear that this is all i have for you now. but someone who must have been very smart said that "a picture is worth a thousand words..." what do you think??? :)











wow. this one is one of my favorites. one of my favorites to sing. if i ever make an album....i'm singing this one on it.







How deep the Father's love for us,

How vast beyond all measure

That He should give His only Son

To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,

The Father turns

His face away

As wounds which mar the Chosen One,

Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,

My sin upon His shoulders

Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,

Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there

Until it was accomplished

His dying breath has brought me life

I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything

No gifts, no power, no wisdom

But I will boast in Jesus Christ

His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?

I cannot give an answer

But this I know with all my heart

His wounds have paid my ransom



Wednesday, October 3, 2007

sorry about this one


this is the most completely random & unintellectual post i hope i'll ever write.






international guys are so cute. i'm telling you....


international is the way to go.




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