a mothers prayer

a dear friend died this morning.

my thoughts are still a little scattered but i'll do the best i can.

when i grow up i hope that i'm half the woman my mother is. i don't really have the time to explain the "ins & outs" of this death, but my mother is the most compassionate & strongest woman in the entire world. this old man was my mothers best friend & she was probably the only source of Jesus' love he had ever really seen. it was hard to see him go, because he was like another grandfather to me, but it would be harder seeing him suffer. mom always talked to him about Jesus. i will never forget.

my mother has the most audacity of anyone i've ever known. i'm convinced that if it weren't for our mother's prayer, the world would cease to exist. my world would cease to exist anyways.

she has above all else taught me to unselfishly love no matter what the cost.

missions

i want to be a missionary. i want to have millions of children & an orphanage in every country in the world. forget the pressure & what the world says is success.

this is my heart.






there's so many places i want to go. so many things i want to do. so many things to see.




and so many people to love. ♥

australia

i wish i was there now. i wish i was there yesterday. i wish i was there tomorrow.


my heart beats for australia & i've never even been there. my heart beats for so many things, but i've had a heart for australia since i was 12. talk about God building up the suspense. sheesh. some days i feel like packing & getting on the next plane, but i know i have to wait. God's so crazy. i love him. someone prophecied to my sister that i was going there & i wasn't even there. waaaaaaaaaahhh! i wanna go.

i'm going soon enough. i love australia.




on a completely other note. i miss my piano....super bad.




i completely wasn't even going to tell you this, but if you really want to see a beautiful heart, read stephen christians blog. he's one of my personal heroes in life.

& now that the cat is out of the bag...i know you'll read his & not mine because he's amazing. haha. it kept me busy all summer & i want to read everything again. but...from one revolutionist to another, i feel that i have an obligation to him...not to mention i frequently steal things from his blogs & am feeling a little guilty about it now :) i wish i could sit down & have a cup of coffee with him. he completely blows my mind. anyways...try it out. i think you'll be blessed. life is all about perspective. he's one of the most influential people i've ever "not met." so cool. here's his link::: http://modesty.blogspot.com

modesty. how appropriate. i love it.


♥ ♥ ♥

now i'm leaving you with something that God gave me a while back:


Close your eyes Love
Take my hand
And hold on tight
Everything will be alright
Soon the Light is coming
I know it's hard for you to see
The pain you feel is so real
As your heart starts beating
At the speed of light
You feel it pounding in your chest
As you bein to lose your breath
You wonder if there is hope
I'm here to tell you there is
Don't give up or let go
Don't give in
You're not alone
I'm right here
Waiting to catch you

beginnings

oh how i wish that i had a beautiful beginning for you. i always have the worst trouble with beginnings. i've written here multiple times but for some reason i get in this strange habit of deleting it a few weeks later. i'll try my best not to do that this time so that hopefully you get something out of it & well...i will forever get to look back & see the goodness of God & the journey of where life takes me. i only wish that i would have began this sooner. with that said...my goal here is to be completely honest with you. maybe you will be able to relate to some of the pains i go through, some of the joys i go through and some of the absolute silent times i go through. with all of this that i write...be careful not to get the impression that i'm someone i'm not. if you really want to know who i am...sit down with me & listen to my heart. let my life & light be an example of who i am in Jesus Christ.




i'm so excited about this. that no one else i know has a blogspot. the whole "fad" thing really can hurt a persons creativity. anyways hopefully it'll stay that way. so sit back, relax & read.




beginnings. they really are beautiful.


tonight is one of those nights honestly where i wish i had my "sweetheart" so that he & i could just take a little evening walk together to talk about the things of God, the things on our hearts & the day to day complexities that we go through. i've been thinking about him a lot lately. i'm convinced that God will bring him to me when it's time. but my dreaming heart is always dreaming of that day. sometimes i think i see him in the faintest glimpse coming around the corner. but this really isn't going to be about dearest Love tonight.




this is about beginnings. the beginning of something great. i can hear the reverberating sounds of a revolution coming. i'm on the verge of something great.