right now

i would like to lay on the bed of a truck,
under a blanket of stars.
keith urban on the radio.
and

y

o

u

by my side.




"if we never meet again in our lives, i should feel that somehow the whole adventure of existence was justified by my having met you."

the little things

"At every crossroad, follow your dream. It is courageous to let your heart lead the way." -leland thomas



the simple things.




♥


are what mean the most to me.

"i have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." mother teresa



it's been storming all day.
i love it.
dreaming with a broken heart the past few days
has been difficult.


Jesus, send Your rain.
thank You for Your little blessings.
for the people you have put in my life
to show me what love is.



"Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go." -t.s. eliot

where to begin?

all i know is that this life is not about me.

with graduation 17 days away or so, i have now
realized that i may not be graduating in a few weeks
unless Jesus breaks through for me somehow.
(which He seems to be accustomed to doing in my life at the last split
second). i kind of love that about Him. He forces
me to get on my face & cry out. as disappointing
as the thought seems, part of me feels disappointed
to be finished with this.

at the same time. i have dreams. so large. i'm ready
to take the leap. i want to change the world. the
crazy thing is...that i actually believe that i can.

i never want to stop dreaming. to stop reaching out
to people. my heart beats for people.

i'm excited where God will use me next. He let
me encounter a little taste of what He has in
store for me over this past weekend. Just enough
to fuel my heart a little more. just enough
to make me a little bolder.

to make me a little more fearless.
a little more courageous.

Jesus. my Jesus.
give me Your eyes to see.
the ears to hear.
the voice to speak.

to bring hope to this world which is so hopeless.
to bring light into the darkness.
and to love the unlovable.

♥

love deeply

physical touch is by far my love language. i'm just throwin it out there. it has nothing to do with anything.

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the people that God puts in my life to show me what love is...

it astounds me. astounds is putting it lightly.

can i just say that?

i feel like my heart for people has grown so much that it may burst.
i feel as though i can look into someone's eyes & see their heart. it's bizarre. and i love it.

i'm not really a "cry-er." in fact, i rarely do, but for the first time in a long time...my heart is so overwhelmed with the love of my Father through the eyes of the people that i am constantly surrounded by that i feel as though i could possibly shed a tear if i really wanted to. haha.

i am so unbelievably blessed. if i could trade my life for someone else's...i wouldn't.

i love my life. i love the people in my life.
the hardest thing i've had to do yet is going to be leaving southeastern in a few weeks. i never thought the time would come.

it will absolutely break my heart into pieces.
yet, God is still God.
He constantly pushes me out of my comfort zones.
to let go of the things that i love so that i can be in love with Him alone.

i know that God is preparing my heart for something bigger than i could even imagine. i'm just praying that when it's time to let these things go, that i will be able to.

it will be difficult. thinking about it is painful, but He is calling me to something greater. it is hard to imagine my life any other way.

here's to the Love of my life. the friends He has put in my life whom i love deeply. and to the chance to open myself to love even more.

i will wait

forever for you.


(if i have to)

♥

"God will not send us on any journey for which He does not equip us well."

adventure

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing." -hellen keller

"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us, or we find it not." -ralph waldo emerson


my roommate & i have decided that this is our year of adventure. ironically we had proceeded to move into our "aventura" building this year. i could say much about the ones that we have been on. the successful, the unsuccessful. it would be too time consuming, but either way, they were adventures.

i am learning that all of life is an adventure. it all begins with one step. one step at a time up that mountain. the struggles that come with it, yet the beauty that is found in everything. beauty is truly everywhere. i find it everywhere. in a friendly smile. in the springtime flowers. in the summer sun. the gentle breeze.

i love it. i love that the beauty of my Creator is found in the smallest things.

♥

as hard as it is to grasp, i am now realizing that my adventure is JUST now starting to begin.


32 days until graduation.

get used to the quotes. i've got a lot lately.





"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and make a trail." -ralph waldo emerson

choosing

"Two roads diverged into one and I--I took the one less traveled by and that has made all of the difference." -robert frost


i love this poem. one of my favorites.
it's defining.
of life.

of my life.