this morning i virtually woke up in tears. isn't that weird. it's like as human being sometimes our hearts become so overcome with heaviness that even in our sleep, we are not entirely relieved. i've been at work for the past few days doing one of my long jobs. i get off on thursday morning. it has been a nice change away from the mundane, but i've been unpleasantly bored & oddly enough i'm exhausted. which usually means a lot is running through this head & heart of mine.

so many changes in my own life need to take place. there are so many things that i want to see happen. so much to accomplish in this upcoming year. i'm taking literally one second at a time trying to figure this all out. i'm itching to get back to the water. my love. i'd like to see a little of the coast for a while. it feels like home to me. & home is right where i want to be.

i may be a summer advocate, but come february, i become incredibly anxious for some sunshine & warmer weather. some sunshine outside makes my entire life a little brighter. not to mention i will be another year older in a few weeks. i don't feel any older. but with my age comes more responsibilities. more decisions. more searching.

that is all for now. i'm at an indoor rock climbing venue. i should make use of my time & free wifi to....find a job or something :D

love always.