JM

i feel like i've been slow dancing in a burning room for the past few days. so in honor of that...John Mayer...take me away. i love how i don't write anymore & i just let songs say it for me. i've gotten lazy. it's whatev. it comes in waves.

something like this

Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone.

And figured all I'm thinking about is you.

Is you my love.
And my head is in a cloud of rain.

And the world it seems so far away.

And I'm just waiting for.
The droplets.

You left a mark.
I wear it proudly on my chest.
Above my heart.
To remind me that I feel the best.
When I'm with you.
To me everything is effortless.
You know its true.
My eyes are painted with regret and I don’t need it.

-colbie caillat

jason reeves please

there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo. it's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me. ---gretchen kemp

this morning i virtually woke up in tears. isn't that weird. it's like as human being sometimes our hearts become so overcome with heaviness that even in our sleep, we are not entirely relieved. i've been at work for the past few days doing one of my long jobs. i get off on thursday morning. it has been a nice change away from the mundane, but i've been unpleasantly bored & oddly enough i'm exhausted. which usually means a lot is running through this head & heart of mine.

so many changes in my own life need to take place. there are so many things that i want to see happen. so much to accomplish in this upcoming year. i'm taking literally one second at a time trying to figure this all out. i'm itching to get back to the water. my love. i'd like to see a little of the coast for a while. it feels like home to me. & home is right where i want to be.

i may be a summer advocate, but come february, i become incredibly anxious for some sunshine & warmer weather. some sunshine outside makes my entire life a little brighter. not to mention i will be another year older in a few weeks. i don't feel any older. but with my age comes more responsibilities. more decisions. more searching.

that is all for now. i'm at an indoor rock climbing venue. i should make use of my time & free wifi to....find a job or something :D

love always.

call & response

iheartrevolution

iheartrevolution

iheartrevolution

kissing the war goodbye

this is my favorite picture :D

i don't know why

but this makes me want to cry. probably because it's true. and probably because i understand it & it's relevance in my life is overwhelming.

aside from that, my heart is somewhere in africa right now. i've had my mind on africa a lot this week. i want to be there. soon.

passion is something i don't really lack. be passionate about something. anything. those who live with passion truly breathe & those who live without it are suffocating.

whatever it is that you do. whoever it is that you love.

be passionate.

2011

i really was planning to write today. i had some of my post done & then i decided i didn't want to really say any of what was on it yet. my hearts been kind of somber lately. it's a new year. it's time to start rebuilding. this should be really hard, but it will be good for me. it makes me a little bit stronger with each passing day. last year was tremendously difficult, but this is my year of transition. changes. a year to figure out where my life is headed. i am appreciative of the many people in my life right now that make me reach for more. that is all for now. you haven't seen the last of me.